– From Abuse to Freedom –

– From Abuse to Freedom –

As a survivor of abuse, I understand the depth of this agonizing reality, I lived it during the abusive relationship I was in for those long years of my young life. Almost 5 years of my young life, to be specific. But as a survivor, I can tell you that God can heal you! I finally spoke up about this when I was 22. I got the help I needed and through learning my worth through the Word of God, I was able to break free from the past I buried.

I faced every single trauma and by name I forgave those who deeply scared me. The forgiveness is not only for them, but for you.

The scars are deep, the pain is REAL and the abuse was heart breaking. Leaving you feeling as if you are worthless and unwanted. And in many cases, as if you deserved that abuse and pain.

Tonight, before you go to bed, I want you to know that GOD is deeper than the scars, allow Him to cover them with an affectionate and kind love, He is a REAL GOD, so real that He will turn the pain into rejoice and He Can and will mend your broken heart.

Maybe, like me at one point, you have lost faith in God because of what happened to you. I am not saying it will be easy, I am not saying it will not be hard to face the traumas, I am not saying you won’t cry… what I am saying is that facing that fear the enemy has set inside of you is not stronger than the freedom GOD CAN GIVE YOU FROM IT.

If you are in an abusive relationship right now AS YOU READ THIS. Please SPEAK UP! You are not alone, there are people who want to help you. If you have in the past been in an abusive relationship, prostitution, sex trafficked, child abuse, etc… also know that there is help for you too. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

If tonight you scroll down your feed and you happen to read this… and you are in fact crying, telling yourself “THAT’S ME” please SPEAK UP.

I am praying for everyone who may happen to read this post. You don’t have to “like” or “comment.” However, I am praying you reach out to someone. Speak up and get the help you need.

Praying you find the freedom in Christ. Took me many years, but through the truth of who God says that I am, today I live in FREEDOM and speaking in boldness for all who have no voice.

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– “YOU WEAR YOUR HEART ON YOUR SLEEVE” –

– “YOU WEAR YOUR HEART ON YOUR SLEEVE” –

October 17, 2017.

At a young age I learned to be heartless and show no emotion. Why??? Growing up I would cry because my feelings were hurt, feeling lost, confuse, alone, dirty and stained all due to the abuses. (Sounds familiar?)

As I grew older I realized that the more I showed no emotion in the presence of others, the more I pushed people away due to my coldness.

Little did they know when I went home,

the abuses haunted me and penetrated my heart like

a sharp knife that would make my soul bleed.

I wanted to trust, I wanted to show emotion, I wanted to stop pushing people away… but I just couldn’t.

You see abuse does that to you, you can’t trust, even if you try.                                        In lack of understanding others can’t relate. Not because they don’t want to but because they have never experienced it themselves.

I became a human cork in where anyone and everyone would stick a painful pin on me with a label of their choosing.
Not realizing that I had all of those labels on me, the more I became them,                   even though I fought so hard to not be them… needless to say, I failed for a large portion of my life.

So yes. ME TOO. Time after time. From the age of five years old.

THEN, I met Him.

The healer who took the time to heal me.

I met HIM, the lover who took the time to love me.

I met Him, the caretaker who took care of me.

I met Him, the first man who truly saw me.

He had been there all along, finally I saw Him too.

No longer do I have labels pined to me. He took them all away!

I do have scars from on all the pins that held on to my skin for so many years.

However, Jesus has covered them with grace and love.

(He has washed away my sins.)

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Now wearing my heart on my sleeve is the most beautiful thing I could ever do. No more coldness or hardness.
I am free to love, to care, to show emotions/feelings, to speak truth, to speak life to other young girls, ladies and women about the restoration, the healing, the life changing freedom God has given me through His son Jesus Christ.
Life that only comes from God. (If you made it this far, you may now understand me a little better.)

Today, if you can relate to #METOO.

I want to tell you that God can heal you too. Say ME TOO to Jesus!“But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,’ declares the LORD, ‘because you are called an outcast, Zion for whom no one cares.” 

{Jeremiah 30:17.}

My prayer is that today you seek God & give Him all of the abuse. Whatever that may look like. Only He can heal you.