Those moments at night when God keeps you up to speak something powerful, those are the moments in silence when He speaks the loudest. At this specific time in my life, I realize that God has a plan beyond understanding and it is so beautiful to me how He is showing me the big picture (which I know I will never know fully, until I get there with Him.) Every single day and in all aspects, from the smallest things to the biggest. But it is a day by day trusting Him to be able to discover Him deeper and hear Him clearly, through the Word and prayer.
There are times when we just go with the flow of things and more than likely those things are not of Him or from Him and we get so lost in them. We could learn easy but we end up learning the hard way. We hear Him but we are trying to hear Him through the noises, when everything is in motion… We have distractions, we have struggles, we are popping pills, our past hunts us, we can’t get off social media and constantly compare our lives to others, we don’t have what the other person does, we are in an abusive relationship, we don’t have that car or house we want, we have a struggle of what the future may have for us and we get so caught up in those situations that we can’t hear Him through the chaos we live in.
Those moments when everything is quiet and He wakes us up… Not from a sleep but from a spiritual sleep/spiritual coma. That moment when He shakes the ground and awakens our soul, in a way that only you will feel, the way only He knows you will be awaken… That is the moment in silence, the personal silence that He will speak the loudest in a silent way. In a deep and personal way, the way you will not be able to ignore and all of your questions will be answered all at once. In such a powerful way.
In the book of Hebrews 4:12 the author writes, “For the Word is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edge sword, it penetrates even to dividing souls and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.” That is such powerful truth. Because the Word is alive and active, we also know God through it will penetrate our hearts, attitudes, thoughts and lives. Speaking directly to our hearts.
Many questions come to us, such as, why did I get abandoned as a kid?, why did I suffer so much?, why did my marriage not work?, why did I not get that job that I need?, why did he or she break up with me?, why did I get raped?, why do I cut myself?, why do I feel so sad?, why do I have to be addicted to all of the things I am addicted to?, why am I watching porn?, why can’t I stop my eating disorder?, why did I stay in that petrifying abusive relationship?, why did I turn to prostitution?, why did I have that abortion…?
All of those real and raw questions that we are so scared and deeply ashamed to ask. Out of fear no-one will listen or answer us! That shame that consumes you does not come from God. The enemy wants to make you believe that your cry out is ignored, he wants to make you believe all the tears you have cried are worthless. That is all a lie.
That moment of quietness, that moment when we finally let God speak into us, from the deepest part of our soul. Matthew 6:6 tells us, “but when you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.”
That is the moment of intimacy He so badly wants with us, that moment when the enemy no longer has that stronghold on you, when no longer are you blinded by his lies and no longer do you hear his torment. That moment is the moment when God will take the blindfold off you and He will answer you so loudly and clearly. All we need to do is listen, repent of our sins, ask for forgiveness, and accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior. He has been there, we just haven’t stopped to listen. All of those questions and the answers you seek for can be answered, trust HIm.
All it takes is for us to go to the secret place between you and God, that place only He can meet you at. Because beloved, no-one or anything of this world can give you the fulfillment you are seeking for. Only in Christ will you find it.
Trust me, I know it’s hard to trust after so many heart breaks and so many braking your trust. I know it hurts but I also know it’s so worth it. I have been there. In those places, where I can’t believe the enemy took me to. But I can guarantee you, (you, the one reading this) that secret place, that intimate place where God woke me up at, is the same place He wants to meet you at. That place I never knew I could come out of. However, today I sit here writing this. He wants to do the same for you.
Through the Word of God these words are tattooed in my heart, we don’t get told enough that Jesus Christ died for our sins, to give us salvation and the direct way to the Father, God. John 4:6 Jesus says, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”
I want to give you that remainder today.
We can only find that redemption that we so badly desire in Him, Ephesians 1:7, “in Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace.” That freedom you seek through addictions and all the sins of the world, friend, that will only lead you to deep destruction and eternal death. That deliverance you seek though sin, can only be found in the salvation God gives us through His Son, Jesus Christ.
The transformations He does is from the inside out, it will not be easy but it will be so worth it.
The tears you have cried, the Bible tells us in the book of Psalm 56:8, “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in Your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” That’s how precious you are to our Father. He will turn it all into treasures that will be a testimony to others of who He is, His love will be so evident, that will help them come out of the place that you also were at.
All it takes is to allow God to come in and awaken your soul.
“Wake up, sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.”
Today I pray that God does a radical transformation inside of you. That you let Him in those secret places only you know, for Him to heal you. Nothing you will confess will make Him love you less, you are everything to Him. He will cover you with a blanket of peace.
That broken heart you may have, He will repair with His endless love. I pray today you just ask Him to come into your heart through repentance, that you allow him to stay in and accept Jesus as you Lord and Savior.
“I lay down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.” Psalm 3:5.