Sometimes the struggle can be so real.
Tonight is a hard one to handle, in the midst of so many things happening we can’t help but to feel the weight of it all times.
Trust me I am one to admit to it. As HARD as that may be… Which most of the time is.
I can’t sleep at all, my back is just not happy.
I find myself alone praying and asking God “God show me what is triggering this; I do not want it to control me so in order for me to control it help me identify it.” At this second the scripture 1 Peter 5:7 comes to my mind, God has placed it there, “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” It’s so true, He really does.
Then, next thing I know it’s 2:30 am and I am still awake, writing this and feeling like I want to take off running as fast as I can. Not understanding what I am feeling, but God is doing something amazing through this, He is showing me how to completely rely on Him for everything. Letting go of the anxiety. Letting Him take control.
I am writing this feeling more peaceful and aware of what is going on, praying out loud is allowing me to give it to God and God alone. Believing that even the smallest of issues will be taken care of. The book of Luke 1:45 says, “Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill His promises to her!” I believe God will heal me and I believe that I won’t need surgery.
The enemy will try anything and everything to put us down and discourage us, now the enemy can’t use that against me because I stopped, prayed, gave it to God and identified the anxiety my back pain gives me.
Will I feel it later? Maybe, but now I know what it is and being sensitive to the Spirit is allowing God to show me what it was through scripture. Allowing His Word to be sufficient. Believing He Can give me peace to rest.
Today, tomorrow, next week, etc… if you go through something similar I want to encourage you to GIVE IT TO GOD. Go to scripture and dive in. Don’t be embarrassed or afraid to confess it.
The enemy can’t use it agains you when you bring it to light, however, it will continue to be used against you when kept in the dark. As smallest it may be, believe God is stronger, because He is.
The Bible is very clear “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” In the book of John 8:32.
In this way those who love and care about you will know how to pray for and with you.
Being transparent and real with those around you will allow them to be real and transparent with you.
As I post this to encourage, I will also please ask for your prayers. If you need prayer please know that I am here.