“Let the light shine.”

“Let the light shine.”

Today I woke up with the only window in my room a bit open; the light woke me up. Saw it and it made me think….”Why does the light have to be so bright, so strong? It is only bit opened, and it is strong enough to wake me up???”

Got up and I closed it because I DID NOT want the light to come in and wake me up again. Getting ready for the day I realized… The window represented us (humanity), the light represents GOD and the window our separation with HIM.

Sometimes we get focused on not wanting to wake up, we keep closing the window so no light can come in and shine because, WE do not want to let Him show us what we NEED to wake us up from (the light) instead we stay in the darkness, sleeping, comfortable, at a place we should not be, unwanted or unappreciated, at times confused and unaware of what is happening to us without God… not realizing what God has given us through the sacrifice of His son Jesus on the cross.

This morning I contemplated everything around us in the world, realized how the light would come into our rooms and brighten it up completely; no electricity was needed. Light that we do not have to pay for because it was right there all along, all we needed to do is wake up.

The marvelous light of God does that for us!

God woke me up in different, deeper and more intimate ways. If we allow His light shine into our life completely we can share that with others who are as lost as we were before we let the light of God shine on us.

I pray today is a blessed day for you all. Praying that everyone wakes up from any sleep and let God into your heart, let Him fix the brokenness, let Him heal the cuts in your soul, allow Him to mold you into the individual He has designed for you to be.

I pray that everyone is safe, happy, loved, joyful, appreciated, guided and wanted… NOT by this world but by our God. Through the gospel.

Have a great and blessed day everyone.

Love you all but remember GOD loves you more!

– Let’s strive to be the reflection of the kingdom, not a duplica of the misleading world we live in. –

– Let’s strive to be the reflection of the kingdom, not a duplica of the misleading world we live in. –
I’m a regular at Starbucks, I visit the coffee houses 4-5 times a week to write, bible study and meet up with girls I mentor. I love the smell of coffee and I have gotten to know everyone that works there for the most part.
 
Many of the employees often ask me Biblical questions and share their hearts. Which I absolutely LOVE!
 
On a recent occasion a younger girl, I want to say 18-20 years old, she said something that I’ve heard from many before.
She said, “I don’t understand how people can post videos on social media getting drunk, at clubs, twerking, dress provocatively and the next day on Sunday… the post videos at church, dressed modest and singing praises with their hands lifted up.”
She stopped talking for about 20 seconds just looking at me as I looked at her, I was waiting to see if she was going to say anything else, she did… “one thing is having a drink or glass of wine, but to post videos at the club that way and then the very next day, have the audacity to post videos at church with hands lifted up and praising God. That’s hypocritical in so many ways.” She ended that true and powerful statement with, “that’s why I don’t go to church!”
 
I paused!
I wanted to say many things. But as she was talking I was praying.
I was asking God to guide my words, I saw a very hurt young girl, mad, and frustrated with what the world sees as “Christians” and the “Church.”
I looked at her and the only thing I could tell her was, “You will know a tree by it’s fruits (Matthew 7:15:20) and I honestly believe that the problem is discipleship and lack of truly understanding the Word. (Hosea 4:6)”
 
Then she asked me, “have you ever done that?” In a challenging tone. I shared my testimony with her. And I told her, “to answer your question, yes I did that before. When I was months young as a Christian. I didn’t understand what being lukewarm (Revelation 3:16) was. I though just because I had accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, God’s grace was given to me, I could still do all of those things( 2 Corinthians 6:1-3). It wasn’t until I truly understood what the sacrifice on the cross truly was and the conviction took over my life (Hebrews 9:28).”
 
Her aggressiveness was gone and she was opened to me. She looked sad now and she said, “I just don’t get it, how can anyone expect us to go to church and be Christians with all that being something so light to people to do.” My response was, “the church is a place full of hurt, broken and lost people. It’s like a hospital for souls and hearts. Like I said earlier you will know a tree by it’s fruits. Not one person is perfect, people, we all make mistakes but I do see and agree with your issue here.”
 
All this to say, I know this generation teaches us to take advantage of God’s grace and mercy. By doing the same things over and over again and justifying it with, “I asked God to forgive me.” And then to go back and do what everyone is doing, post on a Friday and Saturday all those videos at the club, dancing, getting drunk and then on Sunday videos at church.
 
But that’s is misleading our young generation to think that’s Christianity. It’s Not, it’s deceiving!!!!!!! (Galatians 6:6-8) (2 Timothy 3:13)
 
My conversation with this young girl made me realize how crooked and twisted we make God seem.
 
The problem is the discipleship and obedience we have.
Many conversations I’ve had with many individuals tell me they are content and comfortable in their salvation (this was me at one point) because of a prayer, prayed. But the fruit of true saving faith should be EVIDENT. In all of us. This is why it is so important to know where we stand and challenge our faith each day. Sanctifying our hearts and minds (1 Peter 3:15-17).
 
Ask yourselves questions like “is this from my flesh or is this of God?” “Am I representing God or who I think God is?”
There is a big difference in those questions.
 
Just like this young girl I had this conversation with, there are so many more who feel the same way.
 
Let’s strive to be the reflection of the kingdom, not a replica of the misleading world we live in.

– “YOU KEPT TRACK OF ALL MY SORROWS. YOU HAVE COLLECTED ALL MY TEARS IN YOUR BOTTLE.” –

– “YOU KEPT TRACK OF ALL MY SORROWS. YOU HAVE COLLECTED ALL MY TEARS IN YOUR BOTTLE.” –

Those moments at night when God keeps you up to speak something powerful, those are the moments in silence when He speaks the loudest. At this specific time in my life, I realize that God has a plan beyond understanding and it is so beautiful to me how He is showing me the big picture (which I know I will never know fully, until I get there with Him.) Every single day and in all aspects, from the smallest things to the biggest. But it is a day by day trusting Him to be able to discover Him deeper and hear Him clearly, through the Word and prayer. 

There are times when we just go with the flow of things and more than likely those things are not of Him or from Him and we get so lost in them. We could learn easy but we end up learning the hard way. We hear Him but we are trying to hear Him through the noises, when everything is in motion… We have distractions, we have struggles, we are popping pills, our past hunts us, we can’t get off social media and constantly compare our lives to others, we don’t have what the other person does, we are in an abusive relationship, we don’t have that car or house we want, we have a struggle of what the future may have for us and we get so caught up in those situations that we can’t hear Him through the chaos we live in. 

Those moments when everything is quiet and He wakes us up… Not from a sleep but from a spiritual sleep/spiritual coma. That moment when He shakes the ground and awakens our soul, in a way that only you will feel, the way only He knows you will be awaken… That is the moment in silence, the personal silence that He will speak the loudest in a silent way. In a deep and personal way, the way you will not be able to ignore and all of your questions will be answered all at once. In such a powerful way. 

In the book of Hebrews 4:12 the author writes, “For the Word is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edge sword, it penetrates even to dividing souls and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.” That is such powerful truth. Because the Word is alive and active, we also know God through it will penetrate our hearts, attitudes, thoughts and lives. Speaking directly to our hearts.

Many questions come to us, such as, why did I get abandoned as a kid?, why did I suffer so much?, why did my marriage not work?, why did I not get that job that I need?, why did he or she break up with me?, why did I get raped?, why do I cut myself?, why do I feel so sad?, why do I have to be addicted to all of the things I am addicted to?, why am I watching porn?, why can’t I stop my eating disorder?, why did I stay in that petrifying abusive relationship?, why did I turn to prostitution?, why did I have that abortion…? 

All of those real and raw questions that we are so scared and deeply ashamed to ask. Out of fear no-one will listen or answer us! That shame that consumes you does not come from God. The enemy wants to make you believe that your cry out is ignored, he wants to make you believe all the tears you have cried are worthless. That is all a lie. 

That moment of quietness, that moment when we finally let God speak into us, from the deepest part of our soul. Matthew 6:6 tells us, “but when you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.” 

 That is the moment of intimacy He so badly wants with us, that moment when the enemy no longer has that stronghold on you, when no longer are you blinded by his lies and no longer do you hear his torment. That moment is the moment when God will take the blindfold off you and He will answer you so loudly and clearly. All we need to do is listen, repent of our sins, ask for forgiveness, and accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior. He has been there, we just haven’t stopped to listen. All of those questions and the answers you seek for can be answered, trust HIm. 

All it takes is for us to go to the secret place between you and God, that place only He can meet you at. Because beloved, no-one or anything of this world can give you the fulfillment you are seeking for. Only in Christ will you find it. 

Trust me, I know it’s hard to trust after so many heart breaks and so many braking your trust. I know it hurts but I also know it’s so worth it. I have been there. In those places, where I can’t believe the enemy took me to. But I can guarantee you, (you, the one reading this) that secret place, that intimate place where God woke me up at, is the same place He wants to meet you at. That place I never knew I could come out of. However, today I sit here writing this. He wants to do the same for you. 

Through the Word of God these words are tattooed in my heart, we don’t get told enough that Jesus Christ died for our sins, to give us salvation and the direct way to the Father, God. John 4:6 Jesus says, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” 

I want to give you that remainder today.

We can only find that redemption that we so badly desire in Him, Ephesians 1:7, “in Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace.” That freedom you seek through addictions and all the sins of the world, friend, that will only lead you to deep destruction and eternal death. That deliverance you seek though sin, can only be found in the salvation God gives us through His Son, Jesus Christ.

The transformations He does is from the inside out, it will not be easy but it will be so worth it. 

The tears you have cried, the Bible tells us in the book of Psalm 56:8, “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in Your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” That’s how precious you are to our Father. He will turn it all into treasures that will be a testimony to others of who He is, His love will be so evident, that will help them come out of the place that you also were at. 

All it takes is to allow God to come in and awaken your soul. 

Ephesians 5:14 

“Wake up, sleeper,
    rise from the dead,
    and Christ will shine on you.”

Today I pray that God does a radical transformation inside of you. That you let Him in those secret places only you know, for Him to heal you. Nothing you will confess will make Him love you less, you are everything to Him. He will cover you with a blanket of peace.

 That broken heart you may have, He will repair with His endless love. I pray today you just ask Him to come into your heart through repentance, that you allow him to stay in and accept Jesus as you Lord and Savior.

“I lay down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.” Psalm 3:5.

– Believe. –

– Believe. –

Sometimes the struggle can be so real.

Tonight is a hard one to handle, in the midst of so many things happening we can’t help but to feel the weight of it all times.

Trust me I am one to admit to it. As HARD as that may be… Which most of the time is.

I can’t sleep at all, my back is just not happy.

I find myself alone praying and asking God “God show me what is triggering this; I do not want it to control me so in order for me to control it help me identify it.” At this second the scripture 1 Peter 5:7 comes to my mind, God has placed it there, “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” It’s so true, He really does.

Then, next thing I know it’s 2:30 am and I am still awake, writing this and feeling like I want to take off running as fast as I can. Not understanding what I am feeling, but God is doing something amazing through this, He is showing me how to completely rely on Him for everything. Letting go of the anxiety. Letting Him take control.

I am writing this feeling more peaceful and aware of what is going on, praying out loud is allowing me to give it to God and God alone. Believing that even the smallest of issues will be taken care of. The book of Luke 1:45 says, “Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill His promises to her!” I believe God will heal me and I believe that I won’t need surgery.

The enemy will try anything and everything to put us down and discourage us, now the enemy can’t use that against me because I stopped, prayed, gave it to God and identified the anxiety my back pain gives me.

Will I feel it later? Maybe, but now I know what it is and being sensitive to the Spirit is allowing God to show me what it was through scripture. Allowing His Word to be sufficient. Believing He Can give me peace to rest.

Today, tomorrow, next week, etc… if you go through something similar I want to encourage you to GIVE IT TO GOD. Go to scripture and dive in. Don’t be embarrassed or afraid to confess it.

The enemy can’t use it agains you when you bring it to light, however, it will continue to be used against you when kept in the dark. As smallest it may be, believe God is stronger, because He is.

The Bible is very clear “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” In the book of John 8:32.

In this way those who love and care about you will know how to pray for and with you.

Being transparent and real with those around you will allow them to be real and transparent with you.

As I post this to encourage, I will also please ask for your prayers. If you need prayer please know that I am here.

Love, Krystell.

– “GOD EXPOSES SIN NOT TO SHAME US BUT TO CHANGE US.” –

– “GOD EXPOSES SIN NOT TO SHAME US BUT TO CHANGE US.” –

Today I saw this, I paused and looked at it, and read the words. However, I didn’t fully grasp the meaning of them at that moment. I did some things around the house and as I was, I couldn’t help but to continue to have those words in my head…then it hit me all at once.

At times in life we feel discouraged, however, it is a beautiful thing to be changed and the amazing part about it all is that the CHANGE comes from God. Willingness to allow that to happen. Surrendering all that we are, dying to self, picking up our cross and following Him.

We will never be perfect and we will fall. Don’t condemn yourself, work on the areas where you still struggle and allow God to expose that to you in a deep way only you will understand.

When you already know what those areas are, ask God for that CHANGE that you need in your personal life. In the book of Matthew 7:7 the author writes, “Ask and it will vie given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” We have to have the reassurance that God is listening and we just need to ask Him. There is nothing that surprises God, He already knows it all. All we have to do is come to Him and ask Him to help us through those specific issues.

If you need STRENGTH, PATIENCE, GUDENCE, WISDOM, KINDNESS, RELATIONSHIPS etc… whatever it is He will give it to you. The Bible tells us in Isaiah 41:10, “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

Many of us do not reach out for help because fear creeps in, but God never exposes us to shame us but to change us. Many of us misunderstand that and we become captive of fear. In second Timothy 1:7, the Word says “For God has not given us a Spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” Rest in that powerful truth He gives us.

Praying today is a day where you can allow the transformation from the inside out to happen.

Praying for you beloved friend.

– AUTHENTIC YOU –

– AUTHENTIC YOU –

AUTHENTIC ME; After I gave my life to the Lord I was transformed from the inside out (still an every second of my existence process) and through that I am now an emotional person; something I never was.

I have been told multiple times “Krystell you wear your heart on your sleeve!!!”

All the emotions I suppressed for years have and are now coming up.

I work on controlling them and not let them control me. Proverbs 4:23 says, “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” However, it’s a hard process, for I am human, through a foundation of prayer, patience, obedience, applying myself and reverence I am learning each day more.

It’s not an easy process but it’s been a process that has been worth it. I have gone through situations that have hurt me but have also built me to be who I am today. I will admit that I have also hurt others without meaning to. (Molding seasons as I call them.) Something I have learned is that God will never expose us to shame but to change and built us up. Like He did with Paul. And through the testimony of what He has and continues to do through you, others see Him.

Failure is something that trough a lot of experience I have learned, but through that God uses experiences to stretch and grow me in those specific areas. Magnifying mercy and grace in my life.

Many Christian women have struggles that we don’t speak about. In shame of being judged or criticized.

But sis, yes, YOU reading this….I have joyful news for you! God doesn’t judge or criticize you. He uses those struggles to mold you and to build you. He takes the shame and turns it into freedom.

Once you have confessed your struggle, weakness or secrets.. the enemy can no longer use it agains you because you have confessed it. Now, tell me this doesn’t make you so excited to read? (It made me super excited as I was writing it!!!!!)

Tonight I want to be as open and transparent as possible about this. Also, be as honest as I can be…. I am called to be authentic and SIS and so are you.

So, tonight I ask you one question… who is the AUTHENTIC YOU????

– From Abuse to Freedom –

– From Abuse to Freedom –

As a survivor of abuse, I understand the depth of this agonizing reality, I lived it during the abusive relationship I was in for those long years of my young life. Almost 5 years of my young life, to be specific. But as a survivor, I can tell you that God can heal you! I finally spoke up about this when I was 22. I got the help I needed and through learning my worth through the Word of God, I was able to break free from the past I buried.

I faced every single trauma and by name I forgave those who deeply scared me. The forgiveness is not only for them, but for you.

The scars are deep, the pain is REAL and the abuse was heart breaking. Leaving you feeling as if you are worthless and unwanted. And in many cases, as if you deserved that abuse and pain.

Tonight, before you go to bed, I want you to know that GOD is deeper than the scars, allow Him to cover them with an affectionate and kind love, He is a REAL GOD, so real that He will turn the pain into rejoice and He Can and will mend your broken heart.

Maybe, like me at one point, you have lost faith in God because of what happened to you. I am not saying it will be easy, I am not saying it will not be hard to face the traumas, I am not saying you won’t cry… what I am saying is that facing that fear the enemy has set inside of you is not stronger than the freedom GOD CAN GIVE YOU FROM IT.

If you are in an abusive relationship right now AS YOU READ THIS. Please SPEAK UP! You are not alone, there are people who want to help you. If you have in the past been in an abusive relationship, prostitution, sex trafficked, child abuse, etc… also know that there is help for you too. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

If tonight you scroll down your feed and you happen to read this… and you are in fact crying, telling yourself “THAT’S ME” please SPEAK UP.

I am praying for everyone who may happen to read this post. You don’t have to “like” or “comment.” However, I am praying you reach out to someone. Speak up and get the help you need.

Praying you find the freedom in Christ. Took me many years, but through the truth of who God says that I am, today I live in FREEDOM and speaking in boldness for all who have no voice.

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